*Zhi Wen*
*Charming Twenty Three*
If you let me stay,
I'll love all the hurt away..
Reminiscence...
Today was Ah Ma's(my granny) cremation after 3 days of wake....
Relatives, friends, neighbours all turned up in the morning to send Ah Ma off on her final journey. As I was Ah Ma's only male grandchild, I along with my two uncles were assigned to push the van which contained Ah Ma's body.
Promised part(Avena) that I would not cry... but guess I'm only human after all, couldn't hold back, believe me I tried.. to be strong,to be a man...alas...
As I send Ah Ma off to cremation, memories after memories set in, Ah Ma was the one who took care of me since I was a toddler till I was old enough for pre school.
She learnt Chinese just so that she could speak to me in Mandrin, so that I would nt grow up speakin in hokkien...
"Ah Boy" was what she would affectionately call me even till when I'm adult. I always got the biggest ang bow among all the cousins, the biggest share of food..
She also made very sure I gt disciplined too when I gt naughty, so that I would not grow up becoming a brat...
Yet, I was not by her side when she breathe her last...Nobody was... I just hoped that the doctor n nurses get their deserves, but nothing matters animore, she's gone.
Its all prt of the cycle, I understand, I'll learn to let go... but it'll take time..
I'm very grateful to Avena, Anita, Chinboon, Elyn, Meiting, Raq, Rick, Vicki Jie and all those who expressed their condolences n regards, thanx for being there for me =>
I know somewhere in heaven Ah Ma's watching over me...I hope she knows Ah Boy misses her... Rest in Peace Ah Ma I love u =*(
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